akira's Diaryland
Diary
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
The Show Must Go On
I must accept these consequences for my actions when all I did was what the world told me I should do And do anything for my dreams, if only i knew the cost of my dreams, AKA, you.. would be you I'm dead now! The nightmare is slowly taking over All that's happened It is enabling him to take exactly what he wants until he gets what he desires, we'll be at his whim My inner demon, he is screamin' at me, "Take her now! This is your only chance, won't get another, don't let me down. Don't fucking whine. the deed is done you'll be just fine. So you want true romance? throw the dice, take a chance." Why won't you let me in, just let me in! We'll masquerade this awkward phase that we're stuck in. If you accept me and forever be by my side Remember what I said? Every day's a new sunrise So let's just act pretend like this never happened I'm your arcane guardian Just let me in You know our love is caught in your eyes And those hazel eyes They terrorize they terrorize! My inner demon, he is screamin' at me, "Take her now! This is your only chance, won't get another, don't let me down. Don't fucking whine. the deed is done you'll be just fine. So you want true romance? throw the dice, take a chance." Don't let me down If I can't have you, I will never be found. It's sure to kill me if you leave me, so I'll leave you gagged and bound I won't reside, Never Abide won't live my life caught in a lie Baby don't scream Don't scream! You are not alone, his arms are not your new home now just close your eyes, you will never say goodbye Baby don't scream, you know I did this all for you and me Tell me why! Don't fucking scream, you know I did this all just for me You know our love is caught in your eyes And those hazel eyes They terrorize they terrorize! Don't let me down If I can't have you, I will never be found. It's sure to kill me if you leave me, so I'll leave you gagged and bound I won't reside, Never Abide won't live my life caught in a lie There are times. Like right now, when the struggle is just too much. When I can't and don't want to fight it anymore. When I wish the dark would just swallow me up during my restless sleep. "What do I worry about?" If I was truthful I'd be locked away, fed copious amounts of drugs, and labeled suicidal. So I'm vague. I lie. Keep 'em in the dark. I'm never good enough. Never enough. I fill myself with non-senseical things hoping to fill whatever the void is. "Are you taking your meds or have you stopped again?" Does it really matter? Will it fix me? Will I finally be normal? Will it make me be enough? FINALLY? Yes. I take them. I try to remember the ever changing schedule of when an how many. I try. It's just never good enough.
-
-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
previous - next
|