akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- can't commit when it comes down to it, i didn't want her to leave. though i'm sure it would have been the best for both of us. having that space, that time to miss eachother. but i couldn't commit. plus she didn't want to stay w/ friends, and i didn't want her staying w/ family. as far as our relationship goes, we're not that fucked up. yes we bicker and argue, but it's over trival b.s. but on those rare occations when we fight, she gets stupid and says things that make me think. and akira thinking isn't a good thing. i'm still guarding myself. waiting for the other shoe to drop. to see if things infact get better, or to see if all the same things fall back into the same 'ol, same 'ol. - 7*15*09 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
||||||