akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- let's party :0( So this is where I'll begin. Let me first say I'm a fucking HORRID mood. I have no right to be according to most people, to most SANE people, but I am. Deal with it or don't read. Lastnight....we took my boy out for his b-day. We went to this arcade thingie. It was confusing as hell, kinda fun, but confusing. Then we went out for dinner, Taco Bell (i know big spenders eh?), then off to the strip club. Oh boy. I stayed sober for everyone so they could have a good time. My daughters father bought my boy a lap dance. Whoo hoo. I got up and walked away, so it wasn't obvious that I was getting pissed. I did the right thing. I ended up waiting for the bathroom and seeing some of the dance. She kissed him on the mouth (no tounge just lips) I thought I was seeing things, maybe my NEW glasses were blurred??? When I came back to the seat, he had lipstick on his mouth (just the lips). So ya I got pissed he could have pushed her away, but didn't. Then I find out from my tweaker friend that she put her mouth on his crotch. Whoopie. The night goes on. He knows I'm not happy but I'm really trying to not be pissed off at him. The dance wasn't his fault, but the kiss and other things were. Still I try to have fun and hide what I was feeling. My tweaker friend fell in love with this dancer there, and in all honesty she is amazingly beautiful. She got two lap dances off of her. My god was she funny to watch. Fastfoward to home. My boy wants a hug and a kiss goodnight. I say no. He's pissed off that I'm pissed. So there we have it. If you think you can take your man to a strip club and he's saying how he'll push them off of him...DON'T BELIEVE IT. Men are only human. And watching some chick kiss your guy isn't the funest thing in the world. Especially when A-you can't say anything or show your pissed off and hurt. B-the chick giving your man the dance has FRESH track marks on her arm. C-he would get AS pissed if not MORE pissed off at you if positions were reversed. Fucked up thing....after all that....he didn't have fun. Not only a waste of money and time but a waste of energy to keep my feelings inside. As ususal. Ave )O( Akira - 9 * 24 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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