akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Happy Birthday Babe I realize that I rarely talk about my boy out side of bitching. But today is his 21st birthday and I figure it's about time for me to open up that part of my life that I bitch about so frequently. *giggle* I met him on aol in the "Music Gothic" chat room. He would go in there be rude, talk shit, and basically be annoying. I fell in love with him from the start. He says I stalked him, my version is that I was admiring him from a far. hehe The bad part...he lived in Colorado. We would talk online until the wee hours every single night. Then came the phone calls after midnight (because it is cheaper at that time) in his time zone, then I'd call him after a certin time so we could squeeze in those last couple of hours in my time zone. I wanted to see him. I wanted to hold him. I wanted to kiss him. I wanted to be with him. I knew that he was my soul mate. He was the soul mate that I needed at this point in my life. I was in a deep dark place when I met him. Angry, depressed, sad, and on the verge of killing myself by any means possible. Then I met him and there was this light. It was little at first, then it got brighter and brighter. I flew out to see him (telling lies to get there and not really caring). The moment I stepped off the plane and he held me I was complete. I found that wholeness that I had lost when J died. I had my counter part, my balance. I stayed there for a week. I saw my first snow fall. Felt safe and loved for the first time in a really long time. He was everything in my life that I never knew I wanted. He was everything in my life I had been missing. The morning before I left I watched him sleep. Memorizing the moment. I thought I'd never see him again. Two weeks and three days later he moved down to Cali to be with me. We have our good times (really good times) and we have our bad times (equally as bad), but no matter how much I bitch about him. It's nothing compared to how much I love him. He saved me from myself and continues to do so. He's my soul mate, my bestfriend, and my saviour. Opps I love you. Thank you for sticking it out with me. Happy Birthday baby. Ave )O( My (Akira) - Happy Birthday Babe ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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