akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- fuel day is here Now that I have that pesky IC outta the way..*giggle* Just kidding Meg love. I realize that most people think I'm not the most mentally stable person. And if I was on the outside looking in I'd think the same thing (honestly I think it being on the inside too). But something happened on Friday that made me question my beliefs even more then I do already. I've been obsessing about John Edward for months and months now. My boys here actually wanted me to get a reading done by him just get me over what ever it is that plagues me. When I wrote my last entry I linked to his site. I always check my url's to make sure they correct (I hate dead or incorrect links). So I go to his site and on the home page there's a link that says "Chat with John Edward now". Thinking it's already started (he's on east coast time) or the rooms too packed I kinda of dismissed it. But then I realized that the time listed was for the West coast and not the East coast, I figured what the hell and went for it. I got to the sign in screen, then to the screen that check the computer for the program (which we had) and the BOOM I'm in the room. He wasn't in there yet, but I was there. At 4:30 he came in. One of the first things he said was he's got someone for a hard T sounding name, then proceeded to give more details about things. I did recognize things he was saying but thought it was for someone else. You'd think I wouldn't be skeptic or I'd speak right up. But I swear I thought it was for someone else. Turns out it wasn't. J was talking to him and had been buggin him for the last day and a half wanting him to hurry his day to get to this chat room. I freaked out, cried and basically have been in emotional hell since. Thanks J. hehe It was amazing, powerful and wonderful, but at the same time sad. J was there for his brother when he crossed and Simba when he crossed. He apologized for scaring my daughter in the middle of the night (apparently you can't tell time when you die), he told me how proud of me he was and how sorry he was for putting me through all that he did. He showed John Edward HUGE pink roses, which is the sign for love and John Edward himself said he had this deep feeling of love coming over him. J saw my daughter graduate and watches over her every day. *sigh* See emotional hell. I'm so happy and yet so fucking mad that I can't do this for myself. I can see spirits all the fucking time. My grandfather, my boys friends who've passed. But I can't see someone who is/was so important to me. But I know he, his brother, and Simba are all right. It's rather scary that they three of them are together again. They must be reeking havoc in the hear after. :o) That was Friday. Saturday night....well Saturday night oh man. Ok went out with my tweakier chicka. We were suppose to go to this gay club in the city. At first we went to this place where I use to kick it just to chill out. We stayed there for a bit and split. Upon where we came across two very high individuals with whom I made small talk. They called up back as we drove away, wanted to get us high, I declined politely then we raced off. hehe We then went into the city looking for this one club as we're driving by some drunk bitch walking down the CENTER of the road throws her jacket on a passing by truck and proceeds to go after the truck throwing shit at it. We didn't stay there. Off we went to the gay club. As we drive by there are men all over the fucking place, but since I didn't have the right equipment it didn't matter. We drove by 4 or 5 times looking for parking. Each time I saw men doing things to eachother that I can't even describe tsk tsk tsk What a waste of a good man or two. (no offense to anyone who might get offended) And off we go to club number 2. Same problem, only this time no gay men. On this encounter she almost ran over several people wanting to die. Personally i would have hit them. Hell you can always get touch up paint! No luck so we went up to some mountain to see the city. Too many people so we just drove through. On the way down the mountain we get passed by two stupid wanna be moto-X guys, criss crossing eachother DOWN HILL they fly pass us. About 3 minutes later one bike passes us going up hill, a couple of feet after that, low and behold bike two lying almost in the middle of a two lane road bike 2 with gas leaking out of it. We drove past it, then it dawns on me.....BLOW IT UP! I begged and pleaded that she turn around. And eventually I got my way. We had it all figured out. She's drive past it and turn around, I'd throw a smoke out the window onto the gas. *evil giggle* As we got there, fucking people! They ALWAYS ruin my fun! God that would have been so cool! Serves the idiot right for dumping his bike and leaving it there. Dip shit. Long story short....the night was uneventful but god was it fun! I haven't laughed so much in SO long. Thanks Tweakier. Thank you babe for letting me go guilt free! Sunday was SoFA. Insolence played (did I mention that they got signed by Mavrick???hehe) I got burnt. The festival sucked. It was TOO hot. But it was good. The band sounded great. It's probably gonna be the last time we see them for a while. With tour and recording. My girl had a blast. That brings me to today. I was sick, err or rather my eye was. I've got some sort of infection in it, but not pink eye. I have no idea how I got it. All I do know is that it hurts like a mother. Everyone send Meg love. She's a sick sick girl. Both of her ear are affected (that's how my daughter says it) and her cat's hot to trot. I know what it's like to have horny cats outside of your window. hehe Thank you to everyone who called me....Anenigma, Meg, Mangledoll, and Dana. I've got your numbers not. Except Anenigma. I need her number. Reminder I have to write her for her number. Hey if you want a Helloween goodie bag email me with your address. Ave )O( Akira - 9 * 15 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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