akira's Diaryland Diary

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try walking in my shoes

i've tried writing a couple of times. my minds all mixed up with thoughts and ideas, and pain and the usual bullshit that goes through it on a daily basis. i haven't had a real nights sleep in a couple of days..weeks? i know why, i just don't want to admit it to myself. i don't want to say the things outloud that keep haunting my slumber. i'm walking a fine little line right now with myself. only one that i can deal with. having been me all my life, i don't know how to be anyone else. this person i've been for all this time, the reasponsible, trusting, working one, this isn't the real me, or maybe it is and the one that i've been wasn't the real me. i go through the motions of being this "real" person, acting like i'm all grown up, ready for all this shit. i dunno. i miss j. i miss my mom. i miss my life that i had. sis says it's because i'm getting to adult for my own good. i'm living a life that i never thought i COULD live. living the life that "normal" people live, and i'm just not use to it. she says it'll take time to get adjusted to. the drugs being gone, the partying being gone, all this shit is how "normal" people live their lives. not the bullshit i was doing before.

Walking In My Shoes

I would tell you about the things
They put me through
The pain I've been subjected to
But the Lord himself would blush
The countless feasts laid at my feet
Forbidden fruits for me to eat
But I think your pulse would start to rush

Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes

Morality would frown upon
Decency look down upon
The scapegoat fate's made of me
But I promise now, my judge and jurors
My intentions couldn't have been purer
My case is easy to see

I'm not looking for a clearer conscience
Peace of mind after what I've been through
And before we talk of any repentance
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kep
If you try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

Now I'm not looking for absolution
Forgiveness for the things I do
But before you come to any conclusions
Try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes

You'll stumble in my footsteps
Keep the same appointments I kept
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes
If you try walking in my shoes
Try walking in my shoes

Ave )O( Akira

- September 7th 2003

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