akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- all over I make no apologies for who I am. I think I've earned the right to be me. Ya I'm might bit harsh, a tiny bit rude, but it's my right. Just like it's everyone's right to be themselves. If everyone went around acting like everyone else then we'd be pathetic drones. Yes, my last entry was a bit off. I got a wonderful email from someone who thinks their opinion matters to me (knocking me on my spelling of all things) stating how they weren't sure if they were going to be coming back to read more of my diary. *evil laugh* I replied nicely as I could. Please don't ever come back. :o) Still out of my little manic mind and wondering where this will end. Who's going to suffer this time, besides me. I've purposely stayed away from Riley, knowing all to well what he would say "I think you REALLY should look in to a hospital" He's got the best intentions, he really does. In 15 days the whole brood of us are going to Disneyland for Helloween (don't correct the spelling I know it's wrong). The 4 of us. One hotel room. Seven days. GOOD HEAVENS WHAT WAS I THINKING??? Way cool thing...my daughter gets to trick-or-treat in Disneyland. WHOO HOO Something got up my butt to read my old entries today. I rarely read what I write unless someone brings something up to me about what I wrote. This one I don't even remember writing. I never realized just how much J's death effected me. I knew I didn't handle it well that's a gimme. I knew I miss/missed him. I just didn't realize how traumatized I was, I am. No wonder I'm a freaking wreck. lol Time to move on Akira. Ave - 10 * 12 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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