akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Holidayic Atmosphere I have the worst jealousy streak ever when it comes to Voo. Maybe it's because of the bullshit that I had to deal with when we worked together just before we started going out or maybe it's the fact that I never get any (ok that's a lie, I get SOME but not alot) and when I wasn't putting out it was because I was fucking around. Before her I was never jealous, maybe it's because I didn't really give a flying fuck about the people I was with. I tricked myself into thinking that I was jealous, I'd throw little pissy fits and what not, but with her it's totally different. I just don't say anything, I keep it to myself and let it fester and fester like a boil or something. I have my issuses with some things but I don't say anything. I'm choosing to leave it alone to see what happens. It's either my mania that's making me think things or my paranoia that is. Maybe they're one in the same. *ding* I had my mom's mom over for turkey day lastnight (btw Happy Turkey Day to all those that take part in the festivities). It was nice. She loves the apartment and said that it's "cozy" and "homey". I'm thinking that's a good thing. She of course mentioned my uncle. Now this topic is a sore subject for me in any mood, but on turkey day it's even more of a source of sorness. See for as long as I can remember my uncle has somehow worked his brutal magic into fucking with this holiday, even when my mother was alive he did this. It got to the point where I called him and told him to not contact us during this holiday. But he called her lastnight and basically told her that he is how he is and she's just going to have to deal with it. Now her and I don't see eye to eye on topics, and she irritates me on levels that no one can, but that shit just don't fly with me. There's issues, upon issues with this guy. He's spoiled, and an ass, and blah blah blah. I just wanna slap him. So she starts telling me about his call, and Voodu's standing in the kitchen looking like all hells gonna break loose because we're talking about "THE TOPIC" that I can't say anything nice about. Alls good though. I minded the hoiladayic atmosphere and let it slide. And how was your holiday? Ave )O( Akira - November 28th 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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