akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- continued later It's not that I'm exactly piss, or hurt. It's more like I feel really stupid for trusting that anyone could go through all these things with me and not change how they act towards me. She never had before. She always treated me like I was normal. Now I realize that she's human. That she's just like everyone else. It's not her fault. I don't blame her. I just thought that she was different, and she is. But she's more like real people then I thought she was. Since January 2001 my life has fallen apart little by little taking peices of my sanity, my health, my strength, and my happiness. Yet through it all she's stood by my side. I lost my mom in January. Pushed everyone away from me trying to act like nothing was wrong. I got kicked out in November of the same year, after sinking 500 into my car it threw a rod and stopped running. Dealt with the first holidays without my mom being around. IN February of this year 4 days before my mom's b-day my father tries to rape me and pretends to act like nothing happened. Then someone that I though I could trust to never betray me, someone I took in and cared about when no one else wanted, stole from my daughter, hid drugs in her toys, sold everything that I ever owned, every CD that ever meant anything to me... cont. - July 4th ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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