akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- remember I will remember you Remember the good times that we had? I will remember you I'm so tired but I can't sleep But I will remember you I'm so afraid to love you, And I will remember you J's brother got that song for me after he died trying to make the healing process a little easier. I listened to it once, took it out of the player and smashed it with a hammer. I cried for hours after hearing it. Even now I change the station when it comes on. It's been 2 years to the day since J died now. I'm still trying to recover, but I'm not sure that I ever fully will. Through him I became the person I am today. He taught me strength, he taught me power. I met amazing people because of and through him. I learned so about life and death. J was never afraid to show me real life in all of it's ugliness. I know that he was and still is my soul mate. As you grow you change, you learn from your mistakes, you lick your wounds and move on. Throughout your life your soul and needs change. I know in my heart he was sent to me at a time when I needed an angel. He believed in me when no one else knew that I was dying inside. J I miss you and I will always remember. Thank you for being there when I didn't know I needed anyone. Thank you for keeping faith in me when I lost faith within myself. I love you. Akira - 6 * 27 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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