akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- spoiled bitch Crazy day yesterday. My daughter is a total angel. TOTAL angel. Lastnight was the airing of INSOLENCE on Farmclub WHOO HOO. Taped it. The guys looked great, except Mark and that whole crossed eyed thing at the very end haha too cute. They sounded great. My girl was soo amped. **Akira pulls out soap box, clears throat** So my boy is working. I've asked him SO many times to just take a day off so we can spend some time together, leave work early ANYTHING. I get "baby I'm sorry I can't". I called him today just to let him know that Amazon sent out my camera today (he bought me a digital camera that just kicks ass can you say SPOILED??) I couldn't talk to him because he was busy or something. FUCK IT. I've tried to make time but I'm not going to go out of my way to spend time with him anymore. When I want him to come home it's during the day my daughter is at daycare, her dad is at work, we have the whole house (ok ok all one room of it anyway). He started saying, lastnight, how things have changed between us. Well fucking duh. He doesn't have time for me anymore or our supposed realtionship. I'm trying to do things right. Stay outta trouble, behave. It's not worth it really. When he's got time to kick it with me, or he decides that he wants take a day off, well then, if I can it's on. Until then I'm not asking him to stay home anymore. I know I'm this spolied little bitch. Hell I'll admit it. I try to look at it from his point of view and I don't get it. If I were to do the same things that he's been doing with work he'd bug the fuck outta me. Hell when I was working just before x-mas he DID do the same thing. And even then I took days off so that I could spend the day with him. I made an effort. Oh and then there's the money that he's making. He throws that in my face like it fucking matters to me. He can work as much or AS LITTLE as he wants for a day and still get paid the SAME AMOUNT. So ya money fucking matters right? Fuck that. Fuck him. Spoiled spoiled spoiled. I'm out Ave )O( Akira - 6 * 20 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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