akira's Diaryland Diary

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dr. doogie

I've been absent. I haven't been wanting to write lately. Too much chaos going on and I'm getting sick of going over the same 'ol, same 'ol.

I went back to work...why I still don't know. I'm SO not ready. But they needed me and when I agreed to come back I was going to be under my old boss - and she's just awesome. Well, she left...and one of my friends is the manager. Let's just say she really shouldn't be. I like her a whole lot, but she's just not a people person. So there's stress there. I talked with my little psycho doctor dude about going back to work and he thinks that if it's what I feel I should do then I should do it. Oh ya I'm seeing this psycho doctor (he hates it when I call him that...he said it makes him sound like he's unstable HAHA). He's really cool. He's WAY WAY young. I call him Dr. Doogie (showing my age JUST a bit) He doesn't charge me, we don't meet in an office, and the best part....he's not keeping a "legal" documentation so if I do flip out they can't just throw me in the psycho ward without doing a total work up on me. *big sigh of relief* His name is Riley, I tease him about that too. It's cool. He's using me for his classes, he's doing some sort of thesis on me....correction..on my history and how I mentally deal with life in general. :o) He's brutally honest, hurtful sometimes, but he's got me thinking about shit.

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I can't remember the last time I was sober. Is that bad? I've gotten use to falling asleep drunk so I don't think I could go to sleep without booze. It's all good though. That reminds me....I've recently heard all of those little fucking thug boys or pretty fly for a white guy's saying this word (god help me) "III-T" Now I know that's not how you spell it. But how the fuck do you spell a word that's doesn't even have a syllable to it?? What is it IIIIII-T? Or AIIIII-T? What the fuck. There's this stupid fucker at my work. He's all g-funky fresh (or so he thinks) he talks like that so I, me being the bitch that I am, I correct his english. He's such a fucker. He always puts on this shitty music....."I just lost my lover"..."I'm horny and I need a lover"....shit like that. He uses it to get the lady's to do what he's wanting. I got sick of hearing his bullshit and told him that "If you knew how to please a woman my dear you wouldn't need all of that bullshit. Since you use this...you must not be shit in bed." He didn't like that and stopped talking to me. *huge grin*

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I talked to my baby the other night Parzzival. He says he needs to get my advise on something. He asks me what he needs to ask me (which is none of your business). I don't think I helped him. :o( I just want him to be happy. My boy on the other hand says "FUCKING WHORE.COM". He never did tell me for sure what he was going to do. He's cute. I miss talking to him but he's a klidesomethingorothercope making fiend now. :o) hehe

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I don't want to go away. I leave for my mommy's on the 14th and I don't really want to. I wanna stay here. But I promised my mom, that and they are painting the entire house. :o( I've been sick just from the bathroom alone. God I'd be dead if I stayed around for the whole house. ick

Ok screwdrivers kicking in. blur blur blur

Ave )O( Akira
Added later I wrote a something inMoonbaby for once. Let me know what you think. :o)

- 7 * 9 * 00

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