akira's Diaryland
Diary
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back again
I'm back. Finally. :o)
"My heart is like an open highway,
like Frankie said I did it my way."
I'm in a really weird mood. Within in the last week I've basically gotten kicked out with my daughter, but not by her father by her grandfather....found out that my ex Possum has started doing heroin on a regular basis....made a kick ass friend that my boy cannot stand....and lost someone that knows my thoughts before I have them. It's not been a good week for Akira. AND....my work has been hell for the last week. But that's another story! *ding*
When I was up at my mom's I remembered something. I had to call up Riley and ask him why I remembered this...it was buggin' me SO fucking bad. So I tell him what I remember. When I was little and I was going to school I would cry the entire day. Finally the teacher would call my Mom and send me home. I hated being away from home, absolutely hated it. I tell Riley this right.....apparently the way my mind figured was (or so he thinks).....whenever I was away from home is when all the bad things happened to me. It's also the reason that I hate the daytime. Whenever I get rapped it's during the daytime. It's why I feel so free during the night. Go fig. Anyway, this whole neurotic behavior that I have with my daughter going to school is because of MY problems with it. The adjustment for me is harder then it is for her. He so cute.....I called his pager and he called me back from vacation with his folks in New Hampshire. How cool his he??? So he tells me......"use your diary to write what happened when you would go to school. Expel that feeling that you have. Maybe by the time your daughter goes to school you'll be centered enough to deal with it. If not I'll be back to school by then and we can resume our meetings." I'm getting him use to deal with total mental cases I swear. HAHA *ding*
I've got to go. My boy is giving me the evil eye. I'm out Ave )O( Akira
- 7 * 31 * 00
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