akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- all mixed up I feel like running away from my life right now. Putting on happy faces, crying in the shower all this shit needs to stop. I'm watching myself fade away into this person I don't know....maybe this is the real me and I'm just too fucking scared to acknowledge it? I know it's just the holidays. I'm sure of it. I miss my mommy and my daddy. I miss J and his bro horribly. Aren't the holidays suppose to be a time of joy and happiness?? Ya right. That's a lie though. Well not a lie exactly as much as it is a bent truth. X-mas wasn't all that bad. hmmmm I found this diary (I wish I could remember how) the other day and I've been obsessing over it. Not all OJ stalker like, just reading knowing, on some level, the feelings and what not. The art Scott does is beyond words. Talk about random thoughts. I had this urge to post lyrics upon lyrics. I haven't been listening to as much music as my body needs lately. Almost the entire house is awake. The only slumbering soul is my daughter. And I wonder why I can't think. Too many bodies up and about. Ave )O( Akira - 1 * 1 * 00 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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