akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Tell me again. I've never been one to tell anyone how I'm feeling. Well unless I'm sick, then it's "I'm sick, I'm being a bitch, deal with it." I just hate feeling like I'm confused. My head hasn't been working right lately. I don't know if it's the holidays coming up or if it's J's b-day coming up,or a combination of both that's making me like this, I just know I don't like it. I don't suppose that anyone would really. I feel like I can't breath. Like if I take a big breath to relax then the world might fall apart around me. I'm stressing about money, I have no idea how in the hell I'm going to pay rent next month, let alone buy x-mas gifts for my daughter, but then again I know this is the typical bullshit that people go through, I've just never had to deal with it to this extent before. This is the "adult" bullshit that I should have been dealing with all along right? :sigh: Things will be fine, because they have to be. I'm doing all the right things. Stopped the drugs, stopped the drinking, working full-time, paying bills. These are the things that make me an "adult". These are the things that make me "normal". These are the things that make me "responsible". Tell me again why I'm wanting all this? Ave )O( - December 5th 2003 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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