akira's Diaryland Diary

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blanking out

I feel like my house of cards is falling in on it's self. Each card placed in a certin spot for a reason. The first balances the second, balances the third.

*ding*
I haven't slept a sound nights sleep in about a week and a half. I'm thinking this might be effecting me some. *scoffs* SOME? hehe It's strange, these nightmares. It's not exactly nightmares as much as it is...a night frights. I wake up scared and disoriented, but knowing my surroundings. hmm

*ding*
I seriously think I'm losing my sanity or something like it. I've got serious issues with food right now. I don't get hungry and the thought of food basically disgusts me. I have to force myself to eat and once I do I usually get sick afterwards. When I was younger I use to do that whole bing and purge thing, but I haven't done that is a whole bunch of years. This isn't something I'm setting out to do mind you (however the prospect of losing weight is perdy damn awesome). It's just how I'm feeling. Damn my boy's gonna flip out when he reads this. Babe, I'm sorry. I'm not doing it on purpose I swear.

*ding*
In just a couple of weeks I'm going to be 28 years old. I never thought I'd live to see 24 let alone 28. Damn, all of a sudden I feel really old. hehe "Your only as old as you feel." *thinking* I'm old.

I can't think anymore. Plus, I've ran out of things to say.

Ave )O( Akira

- 12 * 28 * 00

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