akira's Diaryland
Diary
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confusion & chaos
Complication after complication in my life. It's been a while. Things went to hell here, and it had nothing to do with me physically. On Thursday/Friday at 4 in the morning, my boss/girlfriend showed up at my door. I'm asleep, my boy's asleep, my daughter, her dad. She shows up hysterical saying that her roommates boyfriend (who is also her roommate) raped her in front of her 4 year old daughter. It took an hour to calm her down and finally I could call the cops. Things carried on from there. I ended up at a hospital (without a bra or shoes on) for support. I've been raped in my life a total of 8 times. From the age of 5. I'm sickly use to it and don't even trip over it anymore. But watching someone having to go through those fucking stupid (not really) tests kinda fucked with my mind. Ya I'm friends with this chick, hell I'd be there for anybody if they needed me like that. I don't know. I can't pin point what's up with me. *ding*
In ten days my Fuel CD comes out. WHOO HOO I'm on a count down. I literally cannot wait for that fucking CD to come out. *ding*
I realized something about my coworkers through all of the shit that's happened in the past day.....I work with some fucking insane people. Ok ya I'm unstable. I might be slightly violent at times. But holy shit..when some of them found out what happened to my boss..first the asked if she was ok, then they asked if she wanted him dead (who wouldn't), then two of them at the same time turned around and picked up the phone and called someone. Boom. End of story. *ding*
*pulls out soap box* Poor Meg. Why can't you people be fucking nice to her?? What's wrong with you? I don't recall her twisting your arm to enter Survivor. As I remember it....she just said she had this thing going on and WE had to email her if we wanted an application. Shit when this whole thing first started PEOPLE WERE EXCITED about it. Damn don't you think there were times when those poor fuckers on the REAL Island wanted to just up and quit?? What the prize isn't good enough to stick it out or take it somewhat seriously?? Pathetic, no offense to those who aren't griping about it. Ya I've slacked in my participation, and there's no excuse for it. But I've also had too much going on to really be able to focus, though I've tried. I've sent Meg emails apologizing and made entries here saying sorry to those who are actively participating. I love the diaries I've had the pleasure in reading because of Survivor. I still read almost all of them daily. That's what I'm going to take away from this experience. Reading others outside of what I've already found on my own. People grow up. *puts soap box away* *ding*
I MUST give mad props to Uber in his IC challenge. It was sad, to me that is, but he threw things in there that made me laugh. The only thing I'm wondering is...when I ding in my diary....do disappear?? Uber baby if your reading this, please email me and let me know. Ave )O( Akira
- 9 * 9 * 00
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