akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- clean underwear needed i've literally been sick for almost 4 months now. i can't breath without wheezing. i cough so much that my chest and stomach hurt when i laugh. i haven't slept good in about three months. i can eat anything one day then the next i'm up the whole night throwing up if i just look at food. i'm starting to get worried that something serious might be wrong here. i mean ya i'm use to being sick. i'm normally sick, no not just mentally either. but this is different. i'm drained all the time now. i don't like showing that i'm not feeling well because my girlfriend gets all bitchy towards me. i'm mean it's understandable i guess. i'm sick, feeling like shit and she can't do anything about it. but when i'm sick and feeling like shit and she's pissed at me bitching at me because i'm not feeling well....ummm...that's just not fair. however today...god she was so sweet. she took care of me totally. bought me soup. let me cuddle up to her when i was sleepy and nodding off. then outta the blue she whispers to me...that i'm beautiful and she never wants to be far from me. awwwwe. now if i could only get her sex drive up, then she'd be perfect. :o) i better feel good tomorrow, my girlfriend, my daughter and myself are all going without underwear. i don't mind so much on my g/f but my daughter! NO! *ding* there are only 10 more days until i'm the mother of a 7 year old child. oh heaven help me. Ave )O( Akira - August 6 02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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