akira's Diaryland Diary ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- dream analysis i keep having these disturbing dreams about loser. i have to admit though lastnight was the worst one yet. voodu and i were at a hospital and for some reason i left her and was walking towards the phone to call someone. as i got towards these double glass sliding doors i see loser in that gross green hoodie that he always wore on the phone with a bunch of people around him. i turned to run away to get back to voodu and all of a sudden i was in a mall. he saw me and started to chase me but i couldn't run or scream or anything. i was moving in slow motion or something. he caught up to me and pulled me down on the floor. i got up and ran but he grabbed my ankles. i was kicking at his face, his chest, telling him i hated him and i wished he would die. he just held onto me and wouldn't let me go. i could see voodu just behind a thick glass door to some resturant. she was standing there waiting for me to get back. i was screaming but nothing was comming out, and loser has holding on to my legs. he kept telling me he wouldn't let me go. that he was going to ruin my life until i took him back and forgave him. then all of a sudden it was just him and i and we were in this dark room and he was strapping my wrists down to some pole. i was screaming and screaming and nothing was comming out the louder i got the less air i had. his face kept turning from his face to P's face to my dad's face. he took off my pants and started burning my thighs with some metal thing. i remember the tears stinging my cheeks and realizing that my eyes were swollen. then i was in voodu's old room in dc and she was holding me. it was dark and quiet. she was holding me telling me to shhh. kissing my head, rubbing my back. and that was it. so if anyone knows what the hell that dream meant could you please email me because i have NO flippin idea what to even look under in a dream dictionary. ave )O( Akira - august 27 02 ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- |
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