akira's Diaryland Diary

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non-sense babble

I don't know what to make of things. I've had bad things happen around me lately. My friend/boss got raped and it triggered off a whole bunch of things off within me. I hide things. Horrors. Demons. I've been raped in my life 8 times. The first time I was raped was back in a time when it was hidden. I was so badly harmed (you'll never hear me say scard) from P that they had to call in a specialist. All my life men have smelled the used flesh within me. It's almost like blood with a wild animal. They can't control themselves.

*ding*
I'm working toward a goal now. My boy here said that if I stay sober for two weeks he'd let me go out with tweaker chick. She was suppose to have gone clean within the last couple of days. Some fucking pathetic mother humper gave her shit on friday. Guess who I'm pissed off at?? *evil grin*

*ding*
I hate my daughter going to school. The know nothing of her. I didn't want to drop her off today. I wanted to keep her with me. Give her another day off. When I picked her up on Thursday she had a burn on her elbow that rivals something I do to myself. She burnt herself on the slide. I talked to the teacher today, telling her I'm nurotic, over protective with my girl probably more then anyother parent that she'll ever come across. When I picked her up....she said that they had not known of that burn period. My girl had never said anything about it. WRONG THING TO SAY TO ME So tomorrow I have to have yet ANOTHER talk with this chick. *laughs* And she thought I was a bitch BEFORE. NO NO NO NO NO NO

*ding*
Today sucked. I found out that Possum was not only bangin dope again but he's smoking crack! Yay him. Fucking loser.

I'm better then that. I know that. So is he, too bad he can't find that out.

I'm drunk. Too drunk. I'm out.

Ave )o( Akira